Thursday, December 27, 2007
Saturday, December 22, 2007
The thought of getting bundled up into a million layers of clothes and STILL freezing didn't excite me, and that long drive didn't sound grand either. But, everyone wanted to go, and I didn't want the girls to miss out...so off we were.
Sienna trying to get her Shades on...
She got them...This is my favoirte Sienna smile. Isn't she a doll?
It turned out to be such a fun experience. The girls were so excited to be outside playing in the snow, and they loved the sleigh ride. Sienna loved to see the animals and just grinned the whole time. Sweet Adyson just wanted to pet the beautiful horses that pulled us. It was such a fun Christmas thing to do. I hope we make it an annual thing...but once a year is still enough for me!
Trav and I, don't look to close...I'm make-upless!
Our Family...don't worry...we haven't gained 'that' much wieght,
we have about a million layers on!
I have started getting butterflies in anticipation of Christmas. I'm like a friggin' kid. I stay awake at night thinking of it and picturing it in my head. I think my favorite part of Christmas is after the kids go to bed on Christmas Eve. I love the sneaking, wrapping, crazy night. When it is all over, I just lay there waiting for morning. I usually start to stir at like 5 and will probably wake Trav up by 6. (I'm really going to 'try' to hold out till 8 this year!) Christmas feels like a great distraction this year. We have decided NO cancer talk on Christmas! I will have to say that through all of this we have really SEEN the Christmas Spirit through so many acts of kindness. What is your favorite part of Christmas?
I'm loving actually having somewhere to hang my stockings this year!
Friday, December 21, 2007
We came home to not one, but two, very special and humbling gifts on our front door. I have no idea who did these things for us, but Travis and I are in complete awe of the blessings we are receiving. I don't feel that we deserve these things- and am vowing that when our lives are normal we will try our best to do these great acts of service for others.
So Thankyou from the bottom of both our hearts. I wish I knew who you are so I could hug you tightly!
Thursday, December 20, 2007
Thankyou ladies at the Kutting Edge for these beauties. I miss you guys!
Wednesday, December 19, 2007
Tuesday, December 18, 2007
We met with the Surgeon first to discuss getting his portocath put in. It sounds like a pretty easy procedure and we aren't terribly nervous about it. He will go in for that on Thursday and right after that we will go and start his second treatment. What a crazy week!
Next he went to get his MRI, and later his bone scan. We unfortunatly don't have any results yet, and are on pins and needles to hear them. I am just praying for good news for a change....we deserve good news....don't we?
Tonight I am feeling bummed that I never got around to doing our Christmas cards. I have recieved so many cute ones this year! So next year my friends, expect a double cute one from the Kidman clan! Also, tonight when we got home there was a bundle of gifts at our front door. What a fun thing to come home to. It brightened my very long day! One was a basket of things with cute messages attatched like a PEOPLE magaine with tag that says "for when you don't want to think about anything at all." My favorite ice-cream "for when you just need to pig out" and Little Ceasars gift cards "for when you don't want to cook. How thoughtful-and once again, How awesome are my friends. One had a beautiful message attatched that just made me tear up, but for happy reasons, not sad ones! Thankyou for thinking of us!
Anyways-I really just wanted to post to let you know we are still waiting on results. Thanks for checking in and praying for us! Enjoy the last week of Christmas!
Monday, December 17, 2007
We are facing this thing the best we can, and are trying to make our attitudes as good as possible. For the sake of my kids I have tried my hardest not to break down in front of them. And to be honest, it has made life a little easier. I'm afraid that some people think I am heartless because I am not crying all the time. I have heard "you are so strong" many times this week, and I just have to laugh. We have our moments thats for sure!
We still are feeling the prayers and love of many people around us. At church yesterday I learned that half the ward reads my blog-who knew? So to those of you in my ward who read this, don't judge me if a swear word seeps out through the blog, and Thankyou for your concern. We love our neighborhood and our ward!
This week a few of my greatest friends and I went to lunch. It was a lovely and much needed escape. Thankyou Lorinda and Ashley. I love you girls.
Thursday, December 13, 2007
We had a very nice chat with Trav's doctor today and were able to ask the questions that have been brewing over the last few days. He will go in once a week for treatments and in 8 weeks we will do another scan to see how he is responding to it. *crossing fingers* If it seems to be working he will continue on with the same medicine. Our hope is that it works, and he can do this for years and years. If this medicine doesn't work, there are a few other options he can try, but we will hopefully not have to cross that bridge!
Tuesday seems to be a big day for us. Travis will go in to meet with a surgeon about getting a "port" put in. (This will make them able to hook his IV up to his chest and he wont have to get his veins pricked every week. He also will go in for an MRI to check his brain and make sure it hasn't spread there. Later during the day he will go in for a bone scan. It has affected his rib, so they want to see if it has gone anywhere else. The best part about this is that Travis feels fine. He doesn't have any aches or pains. If this medicine works, he will continue to feel pretty healthy. We are lucky in that area. I know that when it spreads to the bone it can be a very painful thing, so thank goodness he feels okay.
I guess that is about all we learned today. After Tuesday it is really just a waiting game-and we will be doing a whole lot of praying. Once again I feel like I need to write a few things that I am thankful for today. I know this may seem silly, but it really helps my attitude!
Another nieghbor and friend came over today. She brought a poinsetta, and a barbie for each of the girls. I LOVE that she thought of the girls. I am trying so hard for them to feel normal and for our house to feel happy. So thankyou for that!
Trisha stopped by today too bearing Papa Murpheys Pizza's for us. (they look delicious!) Trisha has been a friend for such a long time and it was just so nice to have her think of us. Thankyou T-lee. I love and appreciate you.
The bishopric stopped by tonight. We love these men. Travis has had the pleasure through his calling to get very close to them. They brought such a great spirit into our home tonight. The Bishop sat us down and told us that when things like this happen, there are two paths you can take. One-you can be angry with God. You can blame him and turn away from him. Or Two-you can turn to him. You can lean on him, and have him carry you through this. What a beautiful message! We are doing our best to lean on him, along with leaning on all of you.
I promise these sappy daily posts will stop soon. Thankyou all again.
Wednesday, December 12, 2007
I decided to give myself one day to sulk, so today I took the day off. I didn't do my hair-it's still damp from my morning shower. I didn't do my make-up. I didn't really take care of my kids. (Don't worry, my mom was here to help!) I ate like crap, and took a very long nap. I feel exhausted. But the day is now over and tomorrow I am going back to normal..or as normal as we can be. So I am done and I'm sorry for the whining! I just wanted to share a few things that made me smile today and say a few thankyous.
Around noon today my friends starting coming. One after another, phone call after phone call. Some of them got the tears, and some of them I was all teared out, but I appreciated each of them all the same. Thankyou for pretending not to notice that I had huge, puffy, make-upless eyes. Thankyou for taking Adyson to play. Thankyou for cleaning the playroom. Thankyou for your prayers.
I got these beautiful flowers from Ashley today. Seriously, how did I get such great friends? Thankyou Ashley for taking such good care of me always. I love you.
Tonight when Adyson came home from her friends house, we asked if she had a good time. She rambled on in one of her very lengthy "Adyson Stories" about how her friend had to "pee" at Lexi's and thought she saw a spider so she was "freaking out." So funny to hear my 3.5 year old say "freaking out." Those girls of ours sure give us the warm fuzzies! So to our angels, Thankyou for making our house feel happy and warm. We love you.
Thankyou to our families. Parents, Brothers, and Sisters. You are all trying so hard to take care of us, and we appreciate you. I know you all feel the same way we do-so take care of yourselves too. I feel so lucky that we can all lean on one another. We love you.
Thankyou to the ICON boys. I love sending him off to work and knowing that you all will help his life feel normal. Just don't tease the "sick guy!" Homemade Oreos to come.
And lastly a little Thankyou to Travis. The other day I was checking my e-mail with Travis over my shoulder. I have a hotmail acct. and I guess I missed the t. So I typed in homail. Travis thought this was too funny. Homail. So today when I checked my e-mail I was just laughing, that is something you always make me do. Laugh. I love you. HOmail, it's funny, I know you are laughing!
Sienna begged me for her hat today, and I thought she looked so sweet, I couldn't resist posting it. Thankyou all for your prayers!
Tuesday, December 11, 2007
In my last post I wrote that Travis went in to get his CAT scan today. He goes every December and usually the same day the Dr. will call and say that everything looks okay. Merry Christmas to us. Today the nurse called and asked us to come in. Not a good sign.
So we met with Trav's doctor today. His cancer is back. He has a tumor in his Left (and only) kidney, spots on his chest, some in his right ribs, and a lesion on his liver. We were completely blindsided by this. He feels terriffic and healthy, and it just FELT like he was a cured man.
Our doctor spoke with us for a good hour or more today giving us treatment options. He too, was totally shocked by the test results. Chemotherepy doesn't work for RCC but they have a few new drugs that they didn't have even 2.5 years ago when he was diagnosed. So on Thursday Trav starts his treatments. He will go in for 1 hour once a week. Trav's cancer is incurable, but our hope is that the medicine will help to shrink it, or at least stop it from growing more. The medicine shouldn't make him too sick, and he should still be able to work, which we are grateful for.
Tonight my dad gave Travis a blessing and once again I was struck by how lucky I am to have the priesthood in our lives. What a comfort that is to us!
Needless to say, we are totally shocked and heartbroken over these results. We really had gotten cocky and felt like we were in the clear. We are terrified-stressed-sad and worried, but whenever something like this happens, we are amazed at how many people take care of us. So thankyou in advance for your prayers, and for all your friendships. We know that we are blessed in many ways, and will do our best to be optomistic that things will end up happy!
Bre and Ashley...Thankyou for bailing me out tonight!
Monday, December 10, 2007
Sunday, December 9, 2007
Sunday, December 2, 2007
Wednesday, November 28, 2007
It FINALLY snowed her in Cache Valley. I am thrilled! As much as I love fall, I NEED a white Chrismtas! I took Adyson to school on Tuesday, and when by the time I went to pick her up the streets were snow packed. The trees were covered and it is just beautiful! Here are some pics of the girls outside playing in the yard.
This is right after we came in and took our coats off. Sienna was so upset that she had to come in. Do you think she is a drama queen?
Sunday, November 25, 2007
So this year I have much to be thankful for, here are just a few.
-My husband is healthy, something I will NEVER take for granted again.
-I have two dream kids. I adore these girls of mine.
-My parents, who constantly teach me, and who love me always.
-The basement is finished-finally, and as I type this, I am sitting in front of the fire!
-I have siblings who are also friends.
-Velour pants from Old Navy-laugh if you will, but man they are cozy!
-In-laws who I love and adore.
-Many good friends.
Tuesday, November 20, 2007
1.I really don't look forward to Thanksgiving. Don't get me wrong, I love to be with our families, but it's just not really my FAVORITE Holiday. I don't eat potato's, I don't eat turkey, and I really don't love pie. One thing I do love is my moms stuffing! I adore it and will manage to stuff myself full of it! This year I am in charge of making a few desserts and have decided on making a few mini cheesecakes so I don't have to eat PIE! YUCK!
2.I am like a kid at Christmas. I honestly can't sleep for days, and usually wake up before the kids. I have to wake them up at 6:00 because I can't wait for them to see if Santa came. I'm such a dork!
3.I am a PLANNER and a LIST MAKER. For instance, I have already made 2 different lists for Adyson's birthday party. Her birthday isn't till the end of March! I find reasons to make lists for everything!
4.I love to throw parties and have people over. I thrive on having to clean my house, cook for others, and clean up when they leave. (mom, I wonder where I got that from..)
5.I am a binge book reader. Even if the book sucks, I usually have to finish it.
6.I am a hypochondriac, and my family finds it extremely funny. (Lorinda, if you are reading this, Can I use a straw yet?)
Thats all! They aren't really interesting, but there you have it. I tag.....
Ashley, because I want to be the first one to tag you.
Brittney, because you are such a fun writer.
Heather Johnstun, because seriously girl, update!
and Michelle, because I am loving you blogging!
Saturday, November 17, 2007
I guess she likes it...