{Our new life}

So much has happened since my last blog post.

And I'm sure everyone who reads this blog,

reads our cancer blog and knows all about it.

But it feels that this needs to be journaled and linked to be complete.

With all this has gone on,

I am utterly amazed and completely proud of how they've found

their beautiful smiles whenever they can.

My girls, they are amazing.

A little over a week before Trav passed away 

the girls danced at half time at Sky View.

They were adorable!

Trav also passed away during this little laides soccer season.

Sienna is a good little player,

but always gets too nervous right at the goal-which has 

made scoring difficult.

About a week before he passed, she had her last game.  Most of  both of our families were able
to attend, and that little Roo scored her first goal.  In front of her Dad, at the last game he would ever be able to attend.  It was a beautiful, beautiful moment.  One I hope she never forgets.

Adyson got her new glasses.  In an adorable shade of purple.

I just can't get over how grown up she looks.

How did this happen?

Heather and her kids were able to come see Travis a week before he passed.

I love this shot. 

In the worst of time my kids will be able to laugh and smile because they 

love their cousins so much.  I am so grateful for that!

And then on October 11th, Travis passed away. I wrote all about it on the cancer blog and don't really want to recap it here.  We miss him. We adore him. And we are glad he's not sick anymore.

Since that time I've been taken care of by so many beautiful people. Let's be honest , I've been taken great care of for years , but my friends and family have not disappointed. They have held me up and helped us smile. I still feel incredibly loved even though the person who loves me most isn't here anymore. I'm grateful for that. Here are just a few pics of some if my lovely family and friends. 

The women in my family. Always there. Never have to ask. Can't imagine going through this without them.

Friends and moms and staff at the girls school. Going above and beyond to take care of all of us.

These girls. They will come over and let me be as ugly as I can be, and pretend bit to notice. Then just make me laugh till I cry. 

These are friends I haven't seen in 10 years. Still adore them and count myself very blessed to know all of them. 

Because I've been so taken care of, I've been able to help the girls enjoy life, and fall and all that comes along with it.

Here they are at the pumpkin patch. Beautiful girls.

And at the pumpkin walk with cousins.

And here they are taking over my bed! Little stinkers!

And the girls have friends loving them and taking great care of them also.  Daily they receive gifts, or cards or notes of love. They have great friends. And their friends have great parents.:)

And Halloween came. Our first, if too many, holidays without our t.  We kept VERY busy. 

Roo- the flapper. And also, gorgeous!

And Adyson, medusa. She is stunning.

The parade at school. Those smiles!

We've redone the bedroom with the help if some amazing friends. Apparently I cope by making things beautiful. There are worse ways, right? Here's sienna enjoying the view.

More gifts from auntie heather. 

The girls are surviving. Because they are amazing and happy and wonderful people. I am beyond proud of who they are. I am in awe that they are my kids and that Heavenly Father thinks I can do this. They teach me a lot of who I should be. I love these girls. Travis and I rolled into one. What a comfort.

And me? Well my Saturday nights have changed a bit.... But I will get through this. One day at a time! 

{Reasons to smile}.

Sienna.  Woke up extra early because she was so excited to wear her new blazer.

I smile about this for several reasons....1-it's clear she's my kid.  Fall wear is the best! 2-she said she felt like she was going to 'the office' for the day.  And 3-this means it's cooling down.  Blessed September.

I love this shot of my Adyson.  This little lady is flourishing in 4th grade.  I am so proud to be her mother. 

Me and my love.  

On a real life date.

T and I in our Sunday Best.  I love him.

Sienna got a ride to the car after school the other day.

Hilarious.

The ladies were given some lovely headbands and necklaces

from my beautiful high school friend who runs Anniston Accessories.

Aren't they lovely?

And today marks the first time Roo faked sick.

She lasted till about 10:30 when she was bored stiff.

Some days you just want to crawl back into bed!  I totally understand!

Fall Happenings.

Took this quick snapshot of Adyson the other day. It makes my heart happy. This kid.... She's such a gem. She had been a tough- wonderful cookie the past few weeks and I do think she is beautiful, inside and out. 
This one. Honestly woke up early to get ready for school because she couldn't wait to wear this jacket. She said she felt like she was headed to the office.

This is the goal.

This was the book sienna brought home from the library. A hint I have some work to do?

I know... More sienna.  But I had to include this. After her soccer game I asked her to give me her best " aggressive soccer pose". I got this.  She's cute. Maybe not aggressive... But so darn cute!

Normalcy

I'm sure you've read our cancer blog by now. It's getting harder and harder to desperate the two blogs, and I wish these worlds wouldn't collide... But I guess that's life for you. I'm trying really hard to document our lives. Trying to remember the really beautiful and really normal moments that are happening during this very strange time of our lives.

Thank goodness for these kids. They always put things in perspective.

Like when we found roo asleep like this the other night. Such a diva.

And how she scored her first goal the other day. For the other team.  Oh bless her.

And we loved how Bennett mauled Adyson.... And drooled on her the other day. She was actually on heaven.

The ladies ran the annual tri school trot a few days ago. They had a blast. Their smiles are heartwarming.

Today we watched some more soccer, went to lunch as a family, and t went to a bit of the Aggie game while the ladies and I shopped and went to dinner. It was a very normal day. And we like normal.

11 years. Lagoon.

Here is the latest in the Kidman household.  About a month ago our ward got pretty torn up by some new boundaries. This has been tough. Yes, we want to get to know other members, and the church is the same no matter where we go... But man, we loved our old ward. We love and miss them every single week.  My dear friend nat came to sit in relief society with me a few weeks ago and we just happened to be twins.  And yes, I took a pic during the meeting. Judge away. Judge away. 

It's cooling down and I feel a change in the air. I go out and run in the mornings and the air is crisp and I stomp on a few leaves on my way. I love this time of year. I love the cooking. The holidays. The pumpkin!! And the rainboots. I am so happy to welcome the season.

Adyson has to run 29 miles this year for school.  Here is or first attempt for 2. She whined the entire time! We went again the other day and she was much happier.... I guess I need to make sure she's in the mood before we go! 

School has been good so far. The ladies have fabulous teachers and we feel pretty happy with that! They do come home looking much less happy then the pic below. Homework, you know. It's rough.

Roo and I decided to give her straight hair one day. She looked beautiful. And old. And I may never do it again! I just adore her curls. 

The ladies have made sure to have a few more spa days. This one was complete with cucumber eyes. Bless travs heart. He is a fabulous father!

And on the 6th, we celebrated our 11th anniversary! I could do a mushy post on how much I adore him, cuz I do. Or how amazing our lives have been together, cuz it is. And how I never thought our lives would be quite like it is, cuz I wouldn't have... But ill just say this. I'd still marry him in a heartbeat. Any day. I love him immensely. 

Our anniversary ended up falling on travs work lagoon day, so that's what we did. The ladies had so much fun. They were absolute best friends the whole night, which doesn't happens as much as I wish it did. They hugged and went on every ride together. We were so happy to see it!

Sienna has been begging ady to go on wicked. Sienna loves the big rides and Adyson gets a little too nervous. But, she went, and she loved it! So happy to have two brave little ladies! They went on everything and giggled the entire night together.  Life here is good. Just look at these smiles!