Sundaes on Sunday

This is wordy, and mostly for my journaling-so if you don't want to read a cheesy-long post. Feel free to skip it.



Today was lovely (aside from this freaking headache I've had all day long!). The kids slept in, meaning I slept in. They woke up happy and ready for church. They were quiet during sacrament meeting, a huge deal for us, and I heard a few beautiful messages. My heart strings were being tugged on all day long, and my tears were close the the surface.

Eileen taught the lesson today and it was about praying in Faith. The message seemed to be made just for me, and in true Eileen fashion it was beautiful. I have to admit that through all of this there are moments where I feel like I am praying in Faith, and moments where I feel like I spend to much time thinking about what if? and preparing myself for the worst. I have moments where I totally forget the comfort I have been given through prayer and through Priesthood blessings. I forget how much love I have felt through the hard times because I tend to focus on the negative-(when did I become a pessimist?). After the seriously inspired lesson I have decided to focus more on Praying in Faith, and less on wondering what if. I know that through Faithful Prayers I will be prepared for whatever comes our way, and have the comfort we need to get through any challenges we have.

After the meeting and on our way out the church doors I ran into a friend and neighbor (Christina-if you are reading this, I'm talking about your mom. Have I mentioned she is totally amazing?). Her husband has gone through cancer and if anyone knows what we are going through, it is her. She hugged me and just let me know she is thinking of us and I was once again reminded of how many people are on our side.

We invited the whole family over today to break our Fast and for Larry to give Travis a blessing. It is loads of fun for our families to get together. The moms get together and discuss their latest school adventures. They both are pretty passionate about their jobs and their shared grand kids-so they get along just fine. My dad gets teased an awful lot-and sometimes even the Kidman kids join in the tease. Larry pretends he feels bad for my dad, but I'm thinking he is just thankful that my dad takes up most of the teasing. They bond over golfing and whatever else they talk about. Those 2 are just like the same person, except Larry doesn't heart Dancing with the stars. And my dad does, but that's for a whole different post. The kids all play together, and my girls love having cousins everywhere. The house gets messy. We eat too much. And then Travis gets a blessing.

For that few minutes all is quite (except for the rock n roll chant....:) and we sit and somehow through the craziness of the day, the house is filled with the spirit. And my mind feels at ease, and my heart is full of love.

I will never be to the point where I am thankful for Cancer. I know myself well enough to admit this. But I am so very thankful that our families can come together and fill our home with peace and love. And I am very thankful that at such a young age my kids can witness the power of the Priesthood and feel in their hearts the warmth that it can bring.

We have discussed with Adyson a little bit about cancer, but obvs she doesn't really understand the extent of what Travis has, and I think she knows just enough for a 4 year old to know. But he does have a seriously gross ingrown toenail-and she can see that. So tonight after everyone went home and we were getting ready for bed, she said the family prayer. Just before I told her to pray for daddy. So in her prayer she asked Heavenly Father to bless Daddy's Toenail. It made us laugh, and I think she thought his blessing was a result of an ingrown toenail....We sure love those kids of ours!

Now I don't want to pretend that our families are perfect. We cuss some, fight some, and drive each other nuts sometimes, but when push comes to shove-we are all there for one another in a very big way. So thank you guys so much for being here today and for everything. We felt very blessed today. And Heather and Jody, I wish more than anything that you guys could have been here. You would have made the day perfect. We missed you a whole lot, and love you a whole lot! And feel better too. And hug your kids from me because I miss them a lot.

For dessert we had hot fudge sundaes. The kids had a blast making their own, and seriously dug eating their creations. And the adults enjoyed them too.