Modbe

I am not a big fan of throwing these kinds of parties. I feel like people feel obligated to buy things so I can get free things...you get the idea. The other day I was invited to a Modbe party, and went. I fell into a very deep and satisfying love with their swimsuits and their jeans. The suits are a little longer so they cover you better, and the bottoms seem to suck you in (a plus for me :), and the back of the pants come up a little higher so you aren't showing off you beautiful underwear everytime you bend over. They managed to do that without making the jeans look like "mom jeans." It was amazing. After spending a small fortune on a swimsuit I decided to throw a party. I've already said I'm a sheep, so here is another example. I have invitations for a lot of people, but some of you live much to far away for my lazy butt to get you yours. So visit their website http://www.modbeclothing.com/ and if anyone wants to come e-mail me and I will send you my address. The party is on Wednesday March 5th from 6-8.

First sign of Spring

Oh it was a good day! Sienna is almost all back to normal, though she still has her diva moments that make me realize she isn't totally better, but she is getting there! I managed to get everything on my todo list done and then some today which always makes me happy, and the best part of the day was when I found the first signs of Spring on my driveway. Sidewalk chalk. Yes friends, it was warm enough for Adyson and her cute friend Lexi to go outside without coats on and doodle all over our driveway. I couldn't have been happier! Thankyou Sunshine for coming out to play today, please don't leave me!

Adyson and Lexi enjoying the sun.

They made a "hopscotch" game outside, and tried to play it too. The only problem was that the squares were a bit too small for their feet.

Our weekend

Oh how fun it is to have a sick 2 year old. (Yes, this is sarcasm.) Sienna has been a BEAR for the last couple of days. After throwing up and being fevered for 3 days in a row, I broke down and took her to the doctor. She had lost a little over a pound, but still seemed to be hydrated, so he told me to go home and keep giving her gatorade for the day in very small doses. He said if she still was throwing up the next day we would have to put her in the hospital. So we came home and I just crossed my fingers and hoped for the best. I was pretty worried, but after a few hours she started holding it in, and hasn't thrown up since. Now we are just dealing with her being about the grumpiest she has ever been, (I MISS MY HAPPY GIRL!) And I wont go into details, but her diapers have been less than fun to change. Surprisingly, I am still pretty happy being a stay at home mom, so I MUST love these kids of mine!

Here she is passed out on the couch, she must have been completely exhausted!
Thank goodness Adyson hasn't got this...yet. If she does, I may hire a nanny and find me a full time job.

We were lucky enough to get a night out and go to the Aggie game with some of our friends from our ward this weekend. (Thanks Mont and Mindi!) It was such a fun night, and once again, I am so thankful that we live here. We live by some pretty great people! It as great that Travis is still feeling pretty good so he could really enjoy the game. If you were at the game, he was that really loud annoying guy yelling at the refs. :)

Today was Padin's Birthday, and it was so fun to go see them. He is such a cute kid and just as laid back as they come. He didn't really want presents, he just needed a cake from grandma and he had to have hot wings for his dinner. Yes, hot wings! It cracked me up that my 4 year old nephew has a hot wing addiction! It was great to see you guys, and Happy Birthday Padin!

Padin eating his hot wings! He was happy.

Just a few Updates

I noticed tonight I haven't written about Travis for a while, and apologize to those of you who check this blog for that purpose, but in this case, no new is good news.

He had a treatment today and is feeling pretty good still. Taking that one week off has made a huge difference in how he feel physically, and emotionally. His throat is only a bit swollen right now and he only has one canker. It has been a very nice 2 weeks of normalcy and we welcomed it! We ate regular people food. We chatted in normal voices, no sore throat whispers. I even put him to work helping me get our bedroom ready to paint. (I really didn't...but I hinted enough :) He's a good man! His doctor agreed to him doing 6 weeks on and one week off today, and I hope that makes life a bit easier for him. It is nice to have a light at the end of the tunnel, even if he only has it for one week.

Sienna is still a pretty sick kid. She has a high fever and still hasn't held anything in. I feel terrible for her, but hopefully tomorrow she will feel better. In the meantime I am having a love affair with my Lysol spray, and just 5 minutes ago folded 5...yes 5 loads of laundry.

As usual, thankyou all so much for you support and prayers. I will be better about updating about Trav, but it has been such a great break not thinking about the cancer all the time! I am constantly thinking of people I still need to send thankyou cards to...I hope I get them written one day!

Tiny Moments: Day 7

Sienna is one sick little girl. Today she woke up and immediatly starting throwing up, and hasn't stopped all day. She is just breaking my heart, and if you know me, you know that I worry. How in the world do I make sure she isn't dehydrated when she can't even hold down crackers or water? She didn't nap for very long today and just wanted to sit on the couch and watch "toons." So of course I let her! My Tiny Moment today is what happened when Daddy came home from work. She just sat on his lap, snuggled in and fell into a deep sleep. It just melted my heart.I also had to share what a sweet kid my Adyson is. She made this picture for Sienna to help her feel better. No one told her to, she just thought for sure it would make Sienna's day. I love watching my girls care for one another. It is too sweet.

Note: The picture is a "domination" (dalmation), skateboarding on the snow. Oh she is creative isn't she?

I also want to add one more thing. I am SICK of these kids being sick. Usually we get sick like once a year, and it seems like this year every other week one of them is sick. Poor things. Let's all just hope spring comes soon!

Our Weekend

This weekend we got a nice little visit from Heather and Jody and the kids. It has been pure heaven for me to get to see them, and I am a bit sad that this weekend is over. We miss you guys already....Here are some highlights.

We got to see this one (Brielle) crawl. Aren't her blue eyes just too perfect?

Adyson was pretty excited to wear her Christmas dress to church today, and I finally remembered to take a pic of my sunbeam. Note: I promise there is a jacket to this dress and we don't normally send her to church with bare shoulders in the winter!
Trayson got to spend a bit of chillin' time with Travis. These two get along beautifully!

They have decided that Trav is to be called "big T" and Tray is to be called

"little T."
Great Gram was able to come over and spend some time with the Great Grandkids. They just love her.Sienna was just as happy as can be. She loves to be around all the kids and just adores baby Brielle.

Adyson and Kutter are inseperable. They get together and we pretty much don't see them for the rest of the day. Today they spent hours playing hide and seek. They mostly hid in about two places, but they made it work.

The best part of this weekend was that Travis has felt pretty good. (He started treatments again on Thursday.) Usually Saturdays he is pretty miserable and we stay home and he relaxes for most of the day. This Saturday he felt almost normal, though his throat hurt just a little. I watched him devour the largest Cheeseburger ever and we caught a movie with the kids. It was so wonderful to have a pretty great weekend as a family! Tonight he is starting to feel a bit lousy, but hopefully it wont get too bad. There you go, that is what we have been up to. I hope you all had a great weekend too!

I just noticed that I don't have any pictures of Breezy. I wish I did so I could show you all how stinkin' beautiful this kid is! She has grown up to be such a delight and so much fun! It is great having her be old enough to have girl chat, and she is so helpful with the kids. Breezy, I love you.

Tiny Moments: Day 6

It began with Adyson asking daddy to color with her, but after a few minutes she got a more appetizing offer. Did that stop daddy from getting that picture done? No. Good Job Travis, you stayed in the lines and everything. Aren't I lucky that he is my Valentine? He is a pretty terriffic father!

Happy Valentines Day

My little Cuties and I are wishing you all a Very Happy Valentines Day!

Tiny Moments: Day 5

1 Sucker 25 Cents.
Dora Folding Chair $15
Sticky ruined dress $10
Having Sienna just "sit" for a few minutes...Priceless.

Tiny Moments: Day 4

Oh I have missed you guys!

These girls. I love these girls, and have missed these girls during my 2 month hiatus of bunco. Some I have known for years. We shared middle school embarrasing moments and high school drama together. Some I met in Beauty school and bonded instantly with. We spent many bad haircuts, late morning hot cocoa runs, met some "interesting" boys together, and also watched eachother fall in love and get married. Some of them the friendships weren't so easy to form, but now they are great friends none the less. (Is that supposed to be one word, if so, just ignore my terrible spelling.) Some of my these friends I have only met through this fun Bunco group, but they make our night so dang fun! Tonight I am thankful that my path has crossed with these beauties! How freakin' lucky am I? I have laughed with these lovely ladies. They have seen me at my abslolute worst, and helped me through some tough times. I have cried to them, complained to them, and of course...being the great friends they are, they still just take great care of me. Thankyou bunco girls. I call you that because it seems that is the only time I get to see you all. I wish Bunco was every week....

Note: I didn't get a chance to take a picture at Bunco, maybe next time. Instead you get a pretty awful picture taken by moi while dropping a friend off. Lorinda's eyes are beautiful under those lids, and I really don't have 3 chins...or do I?

Love Story

So, once again I have been tagged, thanks to my sil Amy. I know, I know, you all know too much about me already, but this tag is a fun one about me and Travis. I have yet to share our story...and believe me...it is a doozy of a story. (Amy did you tag me just because you knew how hard these questions would be for me to answer?)


What is your husbands full name: Travis Larry Kidman
How long have you guys been together: See, its only the second question and I am stumped to find an answer. I'd say maybe 6-7 ish years...
How long did you date: Blah, this tag is getting harder. We didn't really date. You see when we met I had a "missionary" who I was determined to wait for. My second missionary for the record. So Travis wasn't in my plans. We met at work and I tried really hard to set him up with my friend. While totally failing at setting him up with my friend, we started flirting shamelessly for a long time. We would chat for hours after work, and before we knew it we were in love. So we never dated....we did things quite backwards.
How old is he: 32. Old fogey.
Who eats more: He used to but lately, due to his awesome mouth sores and sore throat, it seems to be me. (I don't enjoy it.)
Who said I love you first: Travis I'm sure. Though I'm sure I drug it out of him.
Who is taller: Travis
Who is smarter: Travis. No doubt.
Who does the laundry: Sadly, me.
Who does the dishes: We share this fun task. If I cook a good dinner, he usually cleans up.
Who sleeps on the right side of the bed: Travis does, but as soon as he leaves for work I slide into his side.
Who pays the bills: Travis. I am terrible with money.
Who mows the lawn: Travis usually does, but I enjoy it now and then.
Who cooks dinner: Me, I love to cook.
Who drives when you are together: Travis usually drives.
Who is more stubborn: Travis would say me, I say him. Go figure.
Who kissed who first: Travis kissed me first.
Who asked who out first: He kept asking, I kept telling him no. Then one day before ever dating we were in love. If you are wondering...I did wait till my missionary got home, just to be sure (I laugh as I type that because in my heart I was already sure.) Then we got married about 4 months later. 4 crazy months later.
Who proposed: Travis.
Who has more siblings: Travis does.
Who wears the pants in our family: Depends on the day. I do sometimes, he does sometimes. We make it work. (as Tim Gunn would say.)
What have I left out: (I added this question) Well, how about how much I jerked Travis around. Seriously it's amazing the man married me. He must have been able to see how good things could be...if I ever grew up! Oh, and the part where my family knew nothing about him. One day, when I was pretty deep in love, I brought him home to finally meet the rents, my brother and sil, my sister and bil, and all my neices and nephews. No pressure Trav...

I'll admit, our story is not really a fairytale. But it did end up pretty dang happy. Travis, if you are reading this, I love you. I am sorry that I was such a pain in your butt back then. And I am very happy that you will always be my Valentine!

I am tagging...
Heather-because I love you. And think you and Jody have a beautiful marraige.
Amanda-because I remember you and Scott falling in love so well.
Ashley-because you need to blog, even if it is at 2 am with Ayda crying. I love you.
Jill-because I think 3 ICON romances (me, you, and Amanda) will be fun to read about.

Tiny Moments: Day 3

Watching little Adyson write her name has made me smile, and also made me quite proud! I love how smart this kid is and am constantly amazed at how much she knows.

Tiny Moments: Day 2

My Tiny Moment of the day: The kids are in bed. The T.V. is on. Blankets are out. And the Hot cocoa is Divine. (Thanks Cody and Amy!)

Tiny Moments: Day 1

It began with Noel finding a blogging challenge to post a picture of a "tiny moment" that made you smile through the day for 30 days in a row. So Amy took the challange and so has Heather....and I guess you can just call me a sheep, because here you go. My First Tiny Moment Post. Enjoy.

Nothing better than having someone to snuggle you when you are sick. (Sienna has croup...again, and Travis has developed one heck of a head cold.) Aren't they sweet. This tiny moment made me smile.

So, if you feel the need, go ahead a be a sheep as well. I would sure love to see what keeps you smilin' through your days.

Oh, to be a kid again

They get a little time to read.A little "back massage" for daddy.
Nothing like chillin' on the bottom stairs.
Wishing for summer in their shades.
Oh, and a little story time with daddy.

Oh those terrible two's

Sienna has been an easy baby. She is almost always happy. She loves to eat. She goes to bed at 9 pm and wakes up at 9 am and has a 3 hour nap everyday. She's heaven! A little angel.

But this week she has been a grump. She has decided it is impossible to share, she has decided to provoke Simon into hitting her as often as she can (she realizes he gets in trouble and she doesn't). Stinker. And she has started pushing our buttons as much as she can.

For instance, she has found a tiny hole in our old couches, and has been pulling the stuffing out of it as much as she can. I have told her time and time again to stop, and tonight she did it again. So to time-out she went. And she cried. And Trav's heart broke. And my heart broke, though I had to take a picture because she looked so cute stuck in the corner with her little butterfly wings on.

I present to you, our little fairy, in trouble.

As soon as I told her she could leave the corner she ran over to me and hugged me and said "I'm sorry mamma." And hasn't touched the stuffing since. I love my little Ennabug.

Pins and Needles

I fully understand that expression now. The wait for the doctor to call today was excrutiaingly painful! I'll admit it, I got the nervous butterflies.

He did call after the longest wait ever...(really it was only 5 hours) and said that everything is slightly smaller. And by slightly smaller he means like 2mm's. (The size of a pin head.) Hey, any shrinkage is good shrinkage.....(go ahead, laugh...that was funny.)

I have to be honest in saying that I was really hoping for a miracle. I had pictured in my head that the doctor called saying "cancer, what cancer? It's gone..." but I can live with slightly smaller. The doctor did say that he is pleased with the results. Slightly smaller in Trav's case is great considering the type of cancer, and the amount of cancer he has. So from here we just go ahead and do the same stuff. He will go in weekly for his treatments and in 10-12 weeks he will get a CAT scan again and hopefully...more shrinkage.

Travis has had a pretty crappy week though. His tongue is swollen and lumpy...and this morning he required another canker...lucky boy. Saturdays seem to be his really bad days and he doesn't feel like doing much, and selfish girl that I am, I find myself sick of his feeling crappy on his days off. Woe is me, right.

I have decided that maybe my lesson in all of this is to be less selfish. I realize that I have been pretty spoiled in my life. I have had a husband who takes care of us, helps clean the house. He's a diaper changing, dish doing, entertain the kids kind of dad. It's crazy that when he is feeling sick I find myself feeling upset that I have to clean the house by myself. I have found myself feeling sad that we cannot afford some of the material things that I have wanted, and feel bad when his throat hurts so much that he can't talk to me. Woe is me again.

I'm finding it hard to find a balance between life 8 weeks ago and life now. But I am working on it. My goal here is to remember just how lucky I am that he is slowly healing, and to remember how terrible he really feels. It's not just him being lazy.....he's not faking sick. So I will let you know how my journey to a less selfish me goes. :)

Travis gets to take this week off of treatments and I'm hoping that he will feel wonderful! We are planning a great weekend for the family!

We are incerdibly thankful to all of you who fasted for us, and to those who are still praying for us. We always feel very taken care of! Thanks again, and please celebrate our 2mm's with us! We are happy.

Wednesday...now Monday.

Just so you all know, that freakin' CAT scan machine wont be up and running till Wednesday! I'm irritated!

UPDATE: The nice little lady from the hospital (who must have heard the desperation in my voice when she called this morning), just called to say that he can now go in on Monday. Thank goodness, we are ready to see results!